The Past Brings The Future Into The Light

From the moment Lena was born, she's been the center of my universe. Shows like 16 and Pregnant make me sick, because they make moms like me look like whiny, incapable, self-centered brats. I was 19 when I had her and there was never a single moment that I felt cheated by the "young life" I didn't get to live. Sure, it may not have been what I put in my "After Graduation" section of my senior yearbook and she may not have been planned, but from the second I knew I was pregnant, I knew that was what my life was going to be about. Raising that child to the best of my ability no matter what sacrifices that meant.

While I certainly haven't been the kind of Brady Bunch mom (Good Luck Charlie is more my style, less the extra kids) I give it my all. Sometimes I get it right and sometimes I think she's plotting to trade me in for a newer model or for permanent residence with Gramma... Probably Gramma, since she allows things like ice cream for breakfast. Damn that woman and her sweet vanilla breakfast bribes!

Okay, I'm getting off topic here... Part of trying to "raise her right" has included a fairly large amount of saturating her in all the things I grew up loving. My Little Ponies (the real ones), Rainbow Brite, The Dark Crystal, Billy Joel, Elton John, etc. It was the culture that my parents made sure I had and I am passing it on to her. Albeit, sometimes by force (like when I crank up New Kids on the Block in the morning). But mostly not. I'm proud to say my daughter knows which Piano God is which and can sing every single word to songs like American Pie at the top of her lungs.

James was out of town again last night for work and while I miss him, I do enjoy the opportunity to spend time with just her. We've been a duo for a long time and sometimes its tricky going from the two of us to the five of us. She was just not used to sharing her mom and I know that sometimes she wishes she still didn't have to. When these rare evenings come around I try to make the most of the time we have and shower her with attention.

Last night we snuggled up on the couch and watched Back to the Future. She's seen it a thousand times before. It is by far one of my all time favorite movies. But it was different last night. Last night, she finally got it! It was such an amazing feeling to lay there with her and hear her laugh. It gave me a case of the warm fuzzies that she is old enough at last to really connect and understand things like that now. I got to watch her fall in love with Marty and Doc Brown for the very first time. She really is growing up to be such an amazing young lady. I'm constantly in awe of this tiny person who really isn't so tiny anymore. My baby is starting to grow up and I'm excited for these upcoming adventures and the new things we'll get to share along the way.

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Back to the Future: 25th Anniversary Trilogy [Blu-ray]