James works an insane amount of overtime sometimes, but he has that option... I don't. I work my set 40 hours and there is no hope of any overtime ever. This makes me feel extremely guilty because I fully admit he takes on the bulk of the financial responsibility for our family. It doesn't bother him, he's a little old school and believes that it is his responsibility anyway. But, I can't help but feel like I'm inadequate sometimes. I want to contribute more. I want to be able to help provide for our family equally. I want to help ease some of the stress he feels when things are a little I tight. I just don't know how to do it.
Since becoming involved in the blogging world, I see a lot of you ladies out there providing a little extra for the support of your families, but I am literally lost on how to get there. I've joined plenty of affiliate sites: Commission Junction, Amazon Associates, Link Vehicle, etc. None of which have benefited me monetarily. Granted, I'm not pushing any of these sites either. The point of this blog is not really to earn from it, but to provide me with an outlet for the sometimes crazy chaotic thoughts and feelings that I have racing through my head. It's also a way to connect with other people who I can identify with.
When you're a mom, especially a working mom, it's really hard to find people to connect with. Here in our little country town there is a huge community of stay at home moms. I have tried volunteering through the school on several different occasions, but they certainly have their clicks formed and getting into such a tight knit group is like trying to wrestle an alligator. It doesn't help either that I'm a young mom. (Well, not so young anymore, but much younger than the moms with kids my daughter's age.) Basically I get looked at like a leaper who was most likely a promiscuous whore because I was a teen mom and affiliation with me might possibly contaminate them. Needless to say I don't volunteer anymore for school events really, because I got really tired of doing the per-verbally walk of shame whenever someone ask how old I was. A person can only stay so many damning "Oh's" and sideways glances like they're waiting for me to break out my stripper gear and start dancing.
All of that aside, I do believe I could be good in sales. Hell, it's my job to teach people how to sell themselves and therefore sell the product. However, James is very hesitant about my idea to take on selling Scentsy. I can't say I blame him, the starter kit for it is $100 which is nothing to sneeze at. However, every consultant I've talked to has told me that you make it right back after your first party. The key to it though is having the product on hand because people don't like to wait. That's where it really gets him. He knows very well that I don't do anything halfway and I'm certain that he has visions of me decking out our garage as my own personal Scentsy store. (Hmmm... not a terrible idea.) Again, kicking myself right now because the order we placed for this event would have more than covered the start-up cost. We've been talking about it a lot the last couple of weeks and he told me he wants to see how today's event goes before he'll really consider it as a possibility. Don't get me wrong, I don't have to have his permission to do this, but part of why we work so well together is that we make large decisions like this as a team. It's just one of our rules. He doesn't make big decisions without my support and I don't without his.
With his hesitation I'm torn. I have a lot of fear and doubt about so-called pyramid sales. At the same time though, I feel like I could potentially regret not at least trying. I'm not sure what to do at the moment, so any suggestions, life experience stories, or recommendations are certainly welcomed.
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